To be honest.. ever since I was little.. somewhere deep in my heart & soul.. I’ve had always known that I CAN RUN! I just never really listened to myself .. but worst of all.. I didn't believe in ME enough to give myself a chance at it. Running was certainly different from gymnastics that I had opted for instead. If my memory served me correctly I only joined gymnastics after failing to qualify for the running team back in primary school. I never looked back since. Gymnastics to me was a room for expression.. feelings & emotions through bodily movements.. such gracefulness without having to dance. However, I had to quit gymnastics due to injury.. I fractured my coccyx & couldn’t sit on any surface without a cushion for 3 years, let alone land on my tushie again.. hence I was always excused from PE(physical education).. lazed around in the school field til class was over. Guess that’s when I started oogling over sprinters in school. Nope not at their physique(well maybe once, twice or thrice.. hehee) but more over the satisfaction on their faces upon completing each and every one of their training.. which to me was very similar to when a gymnast performs. It’s a time to shine as an individual! How my calves & thighs had kept yearning to join my sprinter friends.. I could hear myself screaming.. “Run..Lavin!” It just wasn’t enough.
Quitting gymnastics has helped me gain 13 kgs.. was very ‘cute’ in secondary school.. Cute as in ugly but adorable.. I didn’t dread it much as I could finally eat whatever and whenever I want.. junk food mostly and of course loadsssssssss of ice cream which I can never say no to. I’d have 3 VERY GENEROUS scoops the VERY LEAST to myself.. or finish a whole tub over a movie alone! Cakes... don’t get me started on that hahaaa.. seriously bad sweet tooth. In spite of looking in the mirror every morning telling myself I’m ginormous.. I pig out everyday and promise myself I’d exercise the next day that very night, which of course never materialized. I no longer have to worry if I’d look bloated or flabby in a leotard.. that itself was a huge relieve!
Then came my knight in shining armour.. heheee. Though I only saw him from a distance but I somehow knew he was the one. I guess I shared one of the many reasons why women out there would want to lose weight - to get the man of their dreams! I started dieting.. it wasn’t that hard for me. I’ve tried everything.. from the Atkins diet to those celebrities religiously follow-Giselle Bunchen; Cayenne Pepper, Renee Zellweger; Caffein loads, etc) even tried becoming a vegetarian but that was the worst choice I made hahaa.. to me that is.. as I could never resist Indian vegetarian food & the ones that I like are rich in carbs.. Try out Saravana Bhavan in Bangsar.. you’ll get what I mean. I don’t see myself having to eat all my meals with cayenne pepper my whole life and I certainly can never give up on my chicken and mutton varuvals.. salivating just talking about it.. arghhh my durians.. I want to eat whatever I want and still look good! I turned to my aunt who gave away her secret.. Invest in a dress, the size I want to be noticed in. Nowadays.. lingeries for me.. hahaa. That's always my 1st step. You see.. that dress or lingerie helps me set my goals to lose weight & of course to dress to impress, set my other half’s tongue wagging! I was still young then & my metabolism was still high. I ate moderately, cut down on my rice intake, stopped eating after 6 p.m and started brisk walking for 45 minutes everyday without fail. I kept trying out the dress I bought almost everyday just to see how much I’ve progressed to decide on the intensity of my future workouts. It worked! I caught the attention of my Tom Cruise. On our 1st date.. I showed him a picture of me on my driving license taken 2 weeks before he had asked me out.. to my surprise he wasn’t shocked at all. He just smiled & said “I would have loved you anyway”. Yeah right?

The love of my life has a penchant for good food! Loves trying out new restaurants which resulted in me having a longer list of food I simply can’t live without.. “Life is short.. why put restrictions to your appetite! Eat while you still can or you’ll feel sorry when you no longer can.. We can always exercise!” He’s so right! I started eating moderately and exercise away the amount of calories I want to burn off in order to sinfully indulge in what I wish to eat next.. I plan all my meals! Never eat whenever you’re dead hungry or upset.. that’s when you lose control & pig out. I succeeded in maintaining my desired weight for years but it all went haywire whenever I got pregnant. I couldn’t exercise.. I tend to suffocate easily even when I climb upstairs to get to bed. How I kept admiring preggers on the cross-trainers at the gym these days. I could only keep myself active by bowling. Yes bowling with the houseball of course as my fingers could no longer fit my own.. 6 games almost every night, 3 times a week at least up to the day before I delivered. Not recommending this to all pregnant ladies out there though! I should have listened to my mother. She told me to EAT FOR ONE.. not for two.. simply meaning don’t overeat. I last ballooned up an extra 32 kgs to be exact..(baby’s weight was 2.7kg) I kept cheating about my weight during my monthly check up with the gynae. Sure I was terrified about contracting gestational or pregnancy induced diabetes but only when I go for my check up.. heheee. Whenever I look back at my photos taken during pregnancies.. I don’t know how my husband put up with my gigantic self and still tells me I’m beautiful..

Whenever I’m 3 months to my due date.. I’d go shopping.. Yes, in search of a lingerie to invest upon heheee.. seriously.. it works! A treat for my dearest husband’s undying tolerance & patience for the past 10 months(+1month of confinement). Got me really determined to get back into shape fast. You see.. you can’t hide your flabby self & spare tyres in a lingerie. A dress helps to hide your imperfections but a lingerie flaunts it all. I lost weight very fast thanks to the shopping malls in Malaysia. I always take the baby out on the stroller immediately after confinement, spend hours walking in the shopping malls.. and only stop at the babyroom whenever I needed to. I shed the excess weight.. but the last 5 kgs was fu*&** stubborn! My body was not toned enough.. the parts that I wanted to tone down that is.. At last I decided to get myself a fitness trainer. I felt I needed to learn the right way to exercise, the right muscles to target, the right exercise machine to spend more time with.. etc. I’m glad that I did! Michael Samuel! Many many many thanks.. to this trainer & now friend of mine who has taught me how to love my body again. I will never forget the day he taught me how to run on the treadmill. I never knew that there was a ‘right’way to run.. no wonder I never lasted more than 10 mins. Thank you Mike for you have helped me reignite my true passion. That very day I ran for 30 mins about 3.4 km. I loved the fact that sweat actually dripped all over my body & that it has helped me maintain my weight. Haven’t felt that in ages. From then on I go to the gym almost every day & spend 30 mins on the treadmill. I was all addicted to speed. Mike suggested running outdoors in the morning but I just can’t keep myself awake that early after shutting off the alarm. One day he asked me to join him in the evening.. so I went. I realized the huge difference! No air-cond! Couldn’t even last 2 km.. panting & suffocating all the way. Sheeshh.. felt like an old lady! He was only following my pace all the time. He kept telling me to get myself a good pair of running shoe. I hesitated at first, well running shoes are not cheap you know and I just bought my multicourt Adidas which I felt was good enough to run with.. but I took his advise & got one.. my Adidas Ozweego. The day I tried it out on the treadmill I literally flew.. effortlessly. These days I’m spending more on running shoes & attire more than I buy casual clothes.. hahaa. Mike was always there motivating me all the way.. Thank you Mike for believing in ME! For this has helped me believe in myself and look how the power of self believe has changed me.

To my friend Cheryl, who believes that behind every avid woman runner, there is supportive family, I would like to also add.. very very supportive friends who are always there motivating each other to SHINE! My sifus.. Steven, Raymond, Lim, Anziariq & Fun.. all of you are such inspiration to me. I consider myself very lucky to have found my inspirations. Sometimes all it takes is the ability to find inspiration in others. Thank you for your guidance and endless support & motivation. Thank you Steven for pushing me to my limits & helping me believe that I can always perform better! Thank you Riq for you have taken my running to the next level! Thank you Kota Kemuning Pacers. Your words of encouragement comes to mind & keeps ringing in my ears for the last 2km of every event I’ve participated in.. a time when I normally turn into my worst enemy.
To my Baby, I know you’re not good with words, not the expressive type but I’m honestly thankful for your understanding, tolerance and undying patience. Your willingness to invest in my passion without hesitating on whether its just a phase, motivates me to improve myself in time. Though it might first seemed to me that you weren’t as excited or supportive as I’d like you to be towards my passion for running.. but I sense just how proud you are of me when you talk about my runs to your friends.. I love you! You and our kids are the reason I have changed. I’ve more to learn about true dedication, determination and strength of character and hope someday our princesses could look up to me as a good role model.
I don’t want to be the best.. I just want to run my best.. I’ve only started running for 3 months now.. how I wish I had started earlier and not put it on hold for the last 25 years of living. I have now vowed to keep on running even with dentures.. and to walk only once I cross the finishing line.
DO CHEER MY NAME!
Lavin







